So. With many hours looming ahead, I wondered if starting a blog would stave off boredom and otherwise occupy me. Blogs are funny beasts. There's a plethora of them these days. I always wondered how it is that people would run across a blog in the first place. The ironic thing is a lot of blogs are turning into these semi-pretentious mutual appreciation societies.. all linking to each other, patting each other on the back for clever turns of phrase or pedantic observations of one sort or another. Speaking of which, I wonder who will link to me and tell me I'm right on.
-snicker-

So, when did the net get turned into a 'Real World'esque reality netvee crapvehicle? It's bad enough that TV got turned into an abysmal mess of trash with nothing to offer except an avoidance mechanism for real life... but the net is turning into this pop culture black hole devoid of any real substance...
...this blog is probably no exception.

I suppose the net has always been an escape. Games, chatting and websites galore of useless crap. But it seems like with the advent of AOL and its ilk, the average user of today is an ignorant tard compared to the user of 1993 when the net was mostly the demesne of collegiate nerd types hellbent on exploring this newfound information shmorgasborg. God I miss those days.

It seems there are three main type of blogs.
1) Vanity blogs. Self indulgent, my life sucks, blah blah blah crap. completely useless, but sometimes amusing. Internet diaries.
2) Political blogs. These are more interesting at times but oft annoying due to the 'I'm right, you're full of shit ' modus operandi so prevalent with internet politicos. It's so easy to hide behind a keyboard.... -snicker-
3) Theme blogs. Exactly like it sounds. I don't think I need to explain this one.

I was trying to sort out in my mind exactly what kind of blog mine was going to end up being. Then I realized, I'd probably annoy myself reading over all the self important blathering I was posting here. So. No agenda.
Just pure and simple mindless babble. I need a release. Ergo. Voila. Eureka! etc.

This blog.

What's funny is when I forget exactly what my username or blog title is. I seriously wonder if anyone else will read this.

Personal stuff.
I told someone I was interested in them today. Then I realized after I'd sobered up that I had told two other girls in the past week that I was interested in dating them. One was an ex, another was a girl I'd been on a date on and the third was someone I'm having dinner with Thursday, the fourth was someone way too young and way too conservative to have any semblance of a carefree relationship with .... wait a second that's definitely more than two... what is going on.

So. I guess it's dating via the shotgun effect. You pump out a wide dispersal pattern and hope it hits someone. Pathetic.

Crazy thing is, I do like all these girls. Each is attractive in their own way. I can't say it's purely physical with any of them because well... I haven't been physical with any of them.. except the ex. but that's a long story.

Funny story though. My buddy told me dating her again would be opening up a can of worms... but really I couldn't for the life of me remember why we'd stop dating in the first place. Then I remembered. She dropped the L bomb in the first month... what kind of insanity is that? I got shivers and the insta-cold shoulder. Gave that is. I felt bad, but how do you reciprocate?

I don't know what to do. Doesn't matter anyhow, I'm leaving this joint in 40 days. PS. Don't ever move anywhere north of Seoul proper. It's just a matter before you implode. I mean implode, not explode. The weight on your shoulders get heavier day by day, where eventually you shrink into a teeny event horizon with no chance of escaping the binds of this world o crap. Did I mention I was stationed at 2ID? Faux hurrahs and false pride. And at the same time. I'm going to miss this place. It's been home for almost two years. I probably wouldn't have appreciated Korea as much as I do if it hadn't been so horrible at this unit. This place essentially FORCED me to go off post because existence is such an endeavor in futility here. In order to breath some soul back into yourself you had to leave the confines of the gates after a day of drudgery and well for lack of a better word. Crap.

Anyhow. I have more thoughts for you later.

This should be good for now. Enough ranting.