Who knew that the Mick Jagger could ever be considered sage or wise...
Things have stabilized in my so called life and could actually be considered back to normal.
HRm. Verdana.. so much more pleasing to the eye than Times New Roman. Why not just call it Times or Roman.. what's so new about it? I guess if you were a typesetter you could be offended by such idle musings.
So... what is normal? Well, I'm most definitely not attached to anyone. Go figure. I think I will end up being that old guy who plays chess in the park. There's a brand of solace in being single I think. Nobody to answer to, complete freedom to do whatever the fuck you want. And yet... I think there's a part of me that likes being in relationships. Someone to share both lifes little triumphs and also the little miseries. Ever since D and I split up.. I really haven't been with anyone in any significant way. But part of me wonders what I ever saw in her.. I mean by comparison with relationships past, she had nothing to offer me... I think I made the pedestal mistake with her... but ultimately, there was a time I was in love with her. I look at the potential there was with Beth and go wow. There is absolutely no reason to settle for less, ever. So my standards got stepped up a notch... again. This sorta makes it a pain in the ass to be with anyone.
I guess I should say for posterity that Beth and I are good. Everything is sorted out.. she's in love.. not with me, but that's fine because I am happy for her. Once everything was said and done, it was great. Completely great.. we were talking like we used to in no time at all. It was such a freaking relief because it was like within a matter of minutes the big cloud that was hanging over us was GONE. It's a good feeling. I was completely miserable when she was putting distance between us... In retrospect, I think it was completely unnecessary. But hey! It's all good now. I can't wait till she gets back. This year is going to be great fun. :D I <3 Beth.
Despite not being with anyone, I'm definitely not alone. I've made some incredible friends in the past couple of weeks. I can say most definitively that I couldn't ask for more from the friends I've made.
I should take a moment to talk about Erin, what a goof. So the other day, I was browsing around for new music.. perusing myspace people for new music ideas.. you know. Being a inet social butterfly. Anyhow, I was bored and asked her to message me if she was bored. I guess she was. Anyhow, the first time we talked, I was completely befuddled. I could have sworn this girl was the devil personified... talk about obnoxious and stuck up. Holy cow. I was like, how could someone with such good taste in books and music be so fricking bitchy?
Well.. as it turns out, it was just a front.. IM persona to fend off internet creeps.. or was it just me? I guess she thought my picture was obnoxiously funny.. so in turn she was obnoxious to me. Feh. Anyhow, the next night we talked again, and I guess through the magic of the handphone, she figured out I wasn't an obnoxious prick either. Go figure. Anyhow, we ended up going to eat dinner, sang karaoke and watched a movie.. all in the same night. I had a complete blast. All thanks to myspace + boredom. Crazy.
Anyhow. She's awesome. Can't wait to hang out with her more. Definitely gonna make the next year a blast. I have more amusing anecdotes about her.. but..
I think I'm blogged out for the time being...
more to follow...
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